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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005

Subject:College boy
Time:2:24 pm.
Mood: mellow.
Well hello again I havn't been here for a while, which can only be a good thing i suppose. Guess where I am at the minute, I am sat here at college, because i am now doing a btec national diploma in fashion yay me woo! I started that in September and I love it so far, the work is easy but that can only be expected seeing as it is the start of the course! There is so much to catch up on in my life but I really can't be bothered to tell you all that is going on to be honest with you! All you need to know is that all is well and geting better, new life, new friends and no more people trying to stand in my way, well they can but they will fail hahaha ... I have to say a big hello to Rie as she reminded me that I have a livejournal lol ... love you lots sweetie, also say hi to kat while i am here too! AND RAYE I LOVE YOU BABY ALMOST AS MUCH AS I LOVE ME xXx
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Tuesday, December 21st, 2004

Subject:Round two 'ding ding'
Time:2:25 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
Bonjour y'all, I havn't been here for what seems like years. Wow it really has changed, I've missed so much. Well how have I been I hear you ask, well I've been absolutely great. Well apart from annoying some of my friends beyond belief (I am now building bridges though so I hope all will be fine). So much has happened in the past few months, I just can't go into it all cause I don't know where I would start or finish come to think of it. All in all it's been a good experience (had the odd hic-up but that's normal).
Anyway with the past few months now behind me I can move on to the next chapter of my life ... the interesting part hehe. I intend on finding myself someone to date as I am now officially bored of being single now ... and there's no point in being a slut ALL my life is there?
Oh Hazel had her baby 8lb 14ounces I think it was on thursday 9th at 00:47 (don't qoute me on that) and he's called Oliver Jay aww congratulations honey. Speaking of friends I really have to get in touch with Elsa, Steph Helena and Rachel cause I need to meet them all in the next few days cause I have cards and gifts etc to give out. Oh my cousin bought me a mini bottle of bailey's cause I've never tried it before, she says it's horrible but it looks so nice! She also got me the little book of drinking lol and I have a feeling that she got me a cd too, if she has it's either Il Divo or Gwen Stefani ... i'll be so happy with both as I want both anyway. Yay thanx vixen, also Fawn got me a gift too but I don't know what it is. She thinks that it may insult me so she had to clear it with my mom first lol. I don't insult easily really! Oh the reason why I feel so accomplished is because Fawn and I went to Telford to go shopping, I was deflating fast 'cause I couldn't find anything ... then out of the blue we found this real nice fcuk bag, I love it and so does she! We went crazy for it hehe, I'm so easily pleased you know!

Oh here are the plans after new year, you ready for this? I gotta go out and celebrate new year with my Vixen (I know it's late but shr's workin *sobs*) then I have to go out with the Wildebeests (I'm such an official member yay I'm Polecat) to celebrate the birth of my lil nephew. Oh yeah I'm an uncle now how cool is that? My bro made a baby with his girlfriend (as you do) and they called in Ashley George so yay to them. Then I'm going to go to Newcastle to celebrate again with Jo's family (brothers girlfriend) so yay! Then I have to go to Coventry to celebrate mine and my mates birthday yay, also my brothers girlfriends sister and here girlfriend want to take me out round stoke cause they wanna see if i'm gay or not lol ... strange I know. Also my bro is engaged so we are having a party for that too ... so I will be spending January drunk lol yay. No complaints from me! Well I gotta go now cause I'm all tired (busy me eh?).
To conclude my year I will say this 'we are but a pancake, stuck to the pan of life'

I know, so philosophical.
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Tuesday, July 27th, 2004

Time:9:38 pm.
Have you ever felt the urge to run and nothing more? Just to run free and move on? To live the life of the free with no boundaries?

I can say no more...
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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004

Subject:Oh dear me
Time:5:37 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Well yesterday I went out with Rachael to see Elsa, Sean and Kim. We went to meet them at the forester (something like that) and I over heard Kim talking to Elsa, moaning about the fact that I invited Kelly-Anne and Stacie to come to alton towers with us. I can't see the problem, I said something to her, obviously I wasn't too best pleased. Considering it was my idea to go to alton towers and so far I've done all the inviting I think it would be fair for me to invite who I damn well want. All Kim has done is asked her Dad if he can get free tickets for the day. That's not a lot really, then she moans that everyone has left it to her, I don't think so I've done all the work thankyou very much. She invited Giles without consulting me, but I don't care cause he's a real nice guy, I have no problem with that, she can invite whoever she wants to. I think she's being really childish about it all, and I don't really care what she thinks about it cause i'm doing all the arranging. Which reminds me, what shall I wear? I have so much choice, it needs to be something that will dry quickly considering I'm going to be going on loads of water rides, it needs to be light weight and thin so I stay cool from the heat (which I'm hoping that we may have) also it has to be something summery, I don't want to wear any dark colours (all of my clothes suit me it's just choosing the right outfit for the right occasion, I think you know where I'm comming from here). Also should i wear a hat or style my hair? I mean the water will play havoc with it if i'm not too careful (may involve some seat swapping on the rapids to stay dry).

Ok well with those thoughts aside, last night was pretty good. It was fun watching Rachael and Joe flirt till the their hearts were content (poor Kev had Rachael taken from him, never mind I'm the runners up prize lol). Although I got really upset in the early hours (the flood of emotions really sobered me up) I was going to walk home but Kim asked her boyfriend to give me a lift, after some stubborn wrestling I finally agreed to let him give me a lift (oh Rachael slept at Joe's house, but we are to trust him, or so I've been told lol) anyhoo Kim took me to one side and had a chat with me about why I was upset, I gave her a brief explaination but nothing too deep I didn't really want to go into it. I know journals are for writing down this type of stuff but I don't feel the need to. She asked if I wanted to meet with her on saturday to talk but I said I would deal with it ... rather sweet of her really. Although I have other issues I wish to take up with her so a meet may not be so bad after all *grins*

On another up side Kim and Giles are getting on really well and he's treating her exceptionally well. Kim appears to be more and more confident around him everytime I see them together, I wish them all the best. She's blossoming into a proper woman ... my lil Kim is growing up *sobs*. Elsa and Sean are going strong still, which is the brilliant, Sean and I had a talk last night about him and Elsa, he's another lovely guy. He had a few issues but I hope I helped him lay them to rest ... which is the best place for them. I can see great things for these two in the future!!!
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Sunday, May 30th, 2004

Subject:Back already?
Time:4:26 pm.
Mood: tired.
You know I expected it to be much longer before I ever got back on here...to be honest I completely forgot about my livejournal...I know it's a bad thing.

Last night I went to Jamie's house for a bbq, well that didn't get very far. For starters there was only a small bbq which wasn't a problem seeing as everyone was drunk anyway, especially me, Racael and Kevin. We didn't know Kevin until last night but he's a lovely guy, really cute too and we were suggesting a threesome all night. Of course we never actually got round to it seeing as we were drunk (again). I'd love to turn up to a social gathering with alcohol and not get drunk, I've done it twice in my whole life so it's a start, better than nothing. I also met Kim's new boyfriend (this is the second boyfriend that she has had from the surgery, I'm not going to speak about the first one though) her new boyfriend seemed nice, but I'm not going to go into judgement just yet. It was a fun night though, I ended up sleeping on the floor next to Kevin, Rachael slept on the sofa with Joe and Deta slept on the other sofa. Graham walked home to Gnosal which wasn't the most intelligent thing to have done, earlier that night I got excited when I saw him cause I thought he was the Jolly Green Giant, boy was I upset when I found out that he wasn't. Adam slept in a double bed by him self and Kim shared the main living room with Giles (goodness know what they got up to and to be honest I don't think I want to know either). On another exciting note Helena put in an appearance with Simon, Nathan and Tony (Tony was so drunk) I decided that I needed to pull Helena around the house to show her people and things, like Kevin who has an alter-ego called Jessica who sleeps with everyone, don't we all really have a Jessica inside us all? I can't really remember much else about the night which is obviously a good thing, although I can remember going into the toilet with Kevin so I could wait for him to pee and he wait for me...I was sat on the bath looking at a beer can wondering how it got there, it never crossed my mind that someone could have put it there but I suppose you just don't think of these things when you are drunk.

Elsa turned up which was great but she wasn't feeling too good so she left early, Kim didn't really seem bothered at the time that she was leaving, until we pointed out that she was going Kim patted Elsa on the back and said see you later in a way in which she sounded that she didn't really care.

I just wonder if this is the start of Kim putting her man in front of her best friends ... all the time!
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Monday, September 22nd, 2003

Subject:Feel me
Time:7:59 pm.
Mood: pleased.
Really quick message here. I was on the bus today to chetwynd and I had this strong feeling that I shouldn't have been there, I didn't belong there. I should have been somewhere else instead of that bus, I was never meant to go there but I did. I felt like I had to be outside of stafford, somewhere was calling me but I didn't know where. This sounds really strange but the feeling was so strong. Then when I came home from work I started to feel other peoples emotions, I felt nervous and excited while standing in the kitchen, I was not feeling them for myself I know that.
Well must dash I have stuff to do and all
xXx
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Tuesday, September 9th, 2003

Subject:ARRRRGH
Time:9:27 pm.
Mood: confused.
Well what a day today has turned out to be. Firstly I ran out of hair gel ARGH, a mans worst nightmare. So I had to use some of my moms wet look stuff, ok but the hold is sooo bad it's scary.
Then I got into to school to be confused by Mr Thomas and his new sign in thing, it sounds easy but when you have a bad start it seems so complicated.
Then I go to see Miss Frankish about art and she was saying that I need to speak to Miss Elsemore which I have already done, then she said that she hasn't got time for it and walked off *hiss*
Then Elsa gives me this work to print out (thanx Elsa you are a star) and I trot off home to do it, I realise that I havn't got my key so I had to climb in through the window. When I got the computer all ready and everything I realise that I have left the work at school (damn it) so I go all the way back then realise that I didn't pick up my key so I have to climb in through the window again. This time though I stood on this pipe thing and it broke (ARGH) so I pushed it back together and used a chair to help me. I print off all the work except that publisher decided to play up and not print anything *sigh*

Good start huh? So all was fine till I get on the bus to psychology, then I get told that I needed the relationship work and what did I pick up? My coursework, the very work that I forgot to take in the day before. It gets better cause I then find out that if I want to resit anything I have to hand in this form by today, TODAY??? So then me and Emma went on a frantic chase round the school after Mrs Gibbs. Then Miss Elsemore told us that they havn't got to be in by today, crisis averted. So I sat in the common room not able to leave (Mr Thomas' new thing) until 3:20 so Kelly-Anne and I play ping pong yay, then we were gonna play with the sticky pads and ball but the ball was missing. So I went to the shop to ask if they sold tennis balls or 'the sticky pad things with the tennis balls' as I called them. I ended up at my nans to get one but we didn't feel like playing by then...

Oh but the highlight was that I have a new pencil case, I now have a lamb as well as a leopard. So I am going to dress up my lamb as a trendy ass and everything..also Gail and Jackie gave me a sweety and a lollipop YAY, oh and I went to visit my nan and she has the best cheese ever, plus she's a great laugh and she was telling me about how much she is learing on her new computer...she can switch it on and play card games...they were giving them away for free at the college so she got in the queue and had one, she just dropped all her work and got in a queue to get a free computer...lol
Go nan go nan
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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003

Subject:A uniform? Are you mad?
Time:11:46 am.
Mood: curious.
Well we had the new head talking to us today, what fun that was. He said that he would enforce a dress code, which is fair enough but I am not going to ponce around in black trousers and a nice white top, and do you think that Elsa would wear a nice black skirt to school with a white buttoned top, I just couldn't see it, Elsa is our lil goth, they are trying to make her look like she is an accountant, for special occasions then yes she could pull it off but not for school, come on people what are you thinking of?

I've already signed this sheet thing that says that we shouldn't have it (forgot how to spell the proper name) but that may just provoke him to give us a dress code. However if he did we would rebel, but in style, after all they would have me *grins* (not a word Rachel if you are reading this, lol) that reminds me I need to mail Rachel, fill her in on things etc etc, so I'll do that now, bye bye y'all
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Sunday, August 31st, 2003

Subject:*yawn*
Time:9:09 am.
Mood: bouncy.
My mother (gotta love her) decided to get me up today, in the morningso that I could help her with some signs that she was doing for her church...I hope I didn't wake you Andrew...well no actually but it is besides the point, but I'm ok with that, lol. Plus she made me breakfast for the help, I feel all special now.
She kept telling me to slow down incase I break the computer, lol...she's new to all this, lol
I'm still recovering from the waltsers that me and my cousin went on, from the spinny thing to the waltsers, what were we thinking? Well what was I thinking anyway, I ook her on the second ride, hehe...she didn't have to follow...but they have nothing on the swan ride at alton towers...woah you wouldn't get me on that..

I'm supposed to be going to the castle today to watch jousting, put I have to pay...PAY??? To watch a couple of people knock each other off a horse with sticks...what is the world comming to? I could pull that off and do it for free, poor public (I'll end up going though just you watch)
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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003

Subject:She has left the building *sobs*
Time:8:00 pm.
Mood: sad.
This is the end, work will no longer be fun..and why? Because Racheal has left (If you read this then tell me if your name is spelt wrong, I'm terrible with that name, lol) I gave her this address as you may have guessed, so hopefully she will leave a message. Work will just be sooo boring now that she has gone...who will mock Helen with me? lol...well I could always use Natalie...Helen the turkey lol, what was I thinking? Well I must dash cause I want to go visit nan...need to talk...
Peace out y'all
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Thursday, August 7th, 2003

Subject:They were quiet...they...they hurt me *sobs*
Time:9:17 pm.
Mood: amused.
Kathrins friends came round today and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...I slapped my own bottom in front of Roxanne (the one that fancies me) like I said I would...hehe was funny.
That's all I'm going to say about today cause I want to blank it from my mind...oh but I must say that Hazel has a new piercing and I can't wait to see it...hehehe
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003

Subject:hooray fo family
Time:7:31 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Howdy y'all! I went shopping in Hanely on Saturday with Kim it was really good, although I never thought I'd say this but I can't wait till the sales are gone. I say this because they throw the clothes anywhere in the shop and you have to go through everything in order to find one thing...WHY? So anyway we ran round there for a while, I picked out this white (hear that Elsa I said white yes Kim brought white cause of me...in your face!!! Love you) top for Kim and her mom liked it, so that was a good find although it wasn't in the sale, but hey it looked good so that don't matter. Anyway I'm going back when the sales are off and it's less crowded and rushed. Also I'm going to go to different places to shop like Telford and Wolverhampton, also I'd like to go to Manchester and London so yay that will be good...see you soon Sean hehehe *grins evily*

Today we let the rabbit out in the garden and he loved it, but because the cage (we took the whole cage out) was on a slant the door kept shuttig by itself, so I held it open with a stick...but because my rabbit is my rabbit it ran into the stick, head first, the stick fell on him and then the cage door shut on him...and he did this twice...lol...bless the lil fuzzy ball he's so cute.

I went up to my nans today for a bit cause my cousin was comming down and I havn't seen her for a while, we arranged a sleep over at my nans, it's sort of a video thing as well so that should be really good. Also my nan had a drink today and she took the word vodka as an insult cause she thought we were mocking her so that pissed us off a bit but hey life goes on, we had a lil rant about it but we'll survive...anyhoo I'm gonna go and eat something in a minute so I gotta cut my entry short...

Oh I jut talked to my sisters friend (Roxanne) and I know that she likes me. I told her that when she comes round that she better ne good cause I will put her through a wall...hehe she's laughing now. Kathrin is bringing round 6 friends on Thursday so that should be fun cause my mom is at church in the morning which leaves me with 6 teenage wannabes...(I think some of them are teenagers now but hey like I pay attention)
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Tuesday, July 29th, 2003

Subject:Hmm...I suppose I'll make it visiting day
Time:9:11 pm.
Mood: awake.
Well today at work it was great, Linda (bless her) can't stand that horrible lavender (chemically enhanced) polish if you can call it that...so because I bought some nice polish not long ago she bought some to use in the control centre (it's too good to be used anywhere else, heh) and it smells of oranges. Not that fake orange smell but real oranges, I was like 'yay' it's made out of orange oil type stuff and all and it even has that citrus smell to it which is what oranges smell of. So as you can guess in a freaky sort of way I'm really happy about that...

...

Yeah so anyway today I phoned Kim, just to see if we were still going to Hanley on saturday and we are...it kinda worried me when she
said that she forgot that we were going. Also we may have to arrange it to some other time if Elsa wants to go still cause she's off on a last minute holiday at the moment...so yeah it wouldn't be the same without Elsa so we have to have her there with us, plus she might be able to take Sean too....so an even bigger YAY.

Tuesday is now my visiting day, every tuesday my Grandad goes to church and my nan is all on her lonesome, she's not like one of those biddies though so she always finds something to do, but I'm gonna go up and have a laugh with her every tuesday and fill her in on all the goss about the family...lol. Plus she is a really good cook...well that's all I'm gonna say for now...
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Subject:Dance till your heart's content
Time:1:34 pm.
Mood: amused.
Today I have spent the morning on the dance mat, which was a whole lot of fun...I'm gonna start getting back on it again...I'm a lil bit rusty but I'm pullin out those A's and AAA's still...yay...Well refering to yesterday and what I wrote I still stand by that, I'm in control now...and it feels good alredy, can't wait to really give it a test run *snigger* I can be quite different, but no one sees that, well until now.

Well Kathrin is at the dentist today something to do with her brace it's too tight or something like that, ah well if he hurts her she'll give him a good beating...again *coughs*
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Monday, July 28th, 2003

Subject:Ok enough is enough
Time:8:51 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
Is there nothing that I can do right? It seems not, well I'm fed up with being some one that I'm not, I'm fed up with trying to get around things without hurting people...it just doesn't work like that...I try my hardest to please people but no that doesn't work either, and do they give a damn about how I'm feeling...no I don't think so...so enough is enough, I ain't gonna stop myself from being who I am just for the sake of some people. If you don't like me then you know what you can do. I've held back so much because I didn't want to hurt others and now I'm just gonna be me. Firstly is Chris, if you have noticed tht entry was a while ago so you know I may think differently now, considering we have been getting on well, but no you can go off on one if you like....yeah at one time I thought you were really freaky, but then I got to know you better, and you know what? You ain't that bad, and if you would have let me explain then maybe you would have known how I feel now...but no you can forget it now, cause I've had enough of people, so you go off on one and I'll stay here and be mr mean again. So now you know that I do actually like you but now you also know that it's too late. My journal is a place to write down feelings and thoughts, so I'm sorry for being human, but I've been really messed up lately for the past few months, but hey who gives a damn...

I just want to scream but there is no one there to hear me, only a few very good mates really take my feeling into consideration...and the favour will be repaid...

I'm sorry that I mess up, I'm sorry that I hurt people, I'm sorry that I'm only human, and I'm sorry that I'm not apologising anymore
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Tuesday, July 15th, 2003

Subject:The heat is soooo bad
Time:8:06 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
The heat in the last few days has been horrible...it's soo hot and everything...eew
I bought these new shades today...they are really cool, I love them, they are all blue with no frame, and well you would have to see them.
Also I spoke to David for the first time in ages after Hazel gave me his address, he got a bit annoyed but that is fine by me, I just stayed cool and let him be on his way, I'm not going to start an arguement with him, it's not worth it. He thinks that people 'like me' never change, well I'm about to prove him wrong, he doesn't know me now, and chances are that he will never know me again, but that's that done, he knows where I am if he's ready to talk about 'things'
Also I am meeting Rowan on Friday...finally, YAY. I have arranged a day to Hanley again, where I plan to spend all my money...hehe...Also I am adding another entry today but I'm blocking it so you have to either ask me nice or be a member to read it..
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Friday, July 11th, 2003

Subject:Jester was good yes jester was good
Time:6:45 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
Hello you out yonder window, Elsa good luck with asking your parents if you are allowed back online, may the internet be with you, lol...now is the time to get down on all fours and really lick boot, I mean you have to give these glorious masters that are your parents what they want. So good luck to Elsa. As for today ir was sooo good, I was a great jester (no big head or anything) Sarah was that Princess from start wars (I don't know how to spell her name though) Kelly-Anne and Stacie were great pink ladies, Elsa was a wonderful goth/vampire/meow Tony was a great Goth, Becky was a teddy girl (or somethink like that) there was Shaft harry potter a nurse and much more, it was good loved it. The amount of smiles and laughs that I got were great though I loved it all *grins* someone honked their horn at me I feel violated...hehe...anyway must go as I have to ring Rowan...
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Thursday, July 10th, 2003

Subject:Funny funny hat
Time:8:14 pm.
Mood: exhausted.
Well 2moz I will dress up like a jester for the school fancy dress day, it hould be fun although it did cost money to do so. I had to put a £15 deposit down and then an extra £18.95 for the outfit...wah???? I'm not renting out an outfit again, they can get lost...*shudders* Elsa is really gothing up her gothy image for and vampire (I think) look, which is gonna be soooo cool. Kelly-Anne and Stacie are going as the pink ladies from greese, so taht should be good...it will be fun. Also I may go to work like that too, so that would be an added bonus...YAY

On Saturday me me Kim and Elsa are going to Telford where I will finally get to meet Rowan, which reminds me that I must text him now with a time so...heh...I'll write again tomorrow so I have to go text now...
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Sunday, June 29th, 2003

Subject:humph
Time:10:17 am.
Mood: annoyed.
Humph, mom woke up this morning in a horrible Sunday mood yet again, she started moaning at the fact that there was people in bed at 9am...why can't she just leave them to sleep?
Oh this always happens on a Sunday, she wakes up in a terrible mood, orders everyone around then walks out the house to go who knows where...ARGH. We just can't win in this house can we?
Well I havn't been here for a while, writing in my precious journal, well I'm here now and hopefully it is for good this time. There isn't really anything to say, I'm going to the cinema next week to see Charlie's Angels 2, it looks soooo good and I can't wait...I have a great thing to post, I got paid on Friday and I have only withdrawn £30, but I owed my mom 10 as well and I still have change left. I am being so good so you should all praise me...*grins*
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Friday, June 20th, 2003

Subject:Oooh it always hurts in the morning..
Time:8:36 pm.
Mood: blank.
I woke up this morning with pains across my face...lol, it was mainly in the nose/throat area...ooh I'm still recovering...and my stomach really hurts too, still with the muscle thing, damn onlivion...
You remember my lil arm? Yeah stumpy...wel today I hit it and that hurts too...will this pain never end? Say hi stumpy (baring in mind I'm still on about the lil arm here), if for some reason you don't know about stumpy (aimed at the friends on here, hiya by the way) then look at Sunday, April 27th, 2003 both sections to it...it tells you all the detail of how I was born like it...up until I was born like it...lol...Anyhoo gotta go now...
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